Adventures in writing. Finding strength in mind and body. How to be weak. T-shirt cutting skills. The odd rant. The bottom of the darkest hole and ways to climb back out. Divorce. ADD as a superpower. Parenting as an exercise in floundering. Single motherhood. The little glowing bits that make everyday life worthwhile. How to rise.
My eyes traveled to the red light on the wall by the door. I’d seen enough about skydiving to know about it. My brain slowed when it turned green. The next thing I knew, a jumper just kind of tumbled out of the plane, gracefully and intentionally, but still. . . he was there, and then, OH MY GOD THAT GUY JUST FELL OUT OF A PLANE. Like it was nothing. Emily and I both shrieked. There was definitely more fear in my scream.
Read MoreIn the spring of 2019, I started making a list. When I talk about this list, people call it a bucket list, but that’s not exactly what it is. A bucket list is things you want to do before you die. My list is made up of things I’ve always wanted to do but never dared attempt because of fear. Some of it was fear of doing something scary, but most of it was fear of what others would think, or fear of push-back from others. Fear of striking out on my own and doing what I wanted because I clung so tightly to what I was “supposed” to be or do. Fear built on other people’s fears. I had strapped myself into a life focused on finding safety and not disrupting the status quo, around pleasing others at my own expense. This list flies in the face of those fears, whether they were justified or not.
Read MoreThrough some of the more hellish months of my life, I couldn’t fall back on the one thing that had so reliably gotten me through hard times in the past: working out.
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